Tuesday, 19 May 2015

Circle of Friends

Dalam social life in campus kan, kau dapat tengok macam-macam perangai, pelbagai ragam dan kerenah manusia-manusia berintelektual ni. Campus life jugak berpisah tiada dengan issue kawan makan kawan, kawan till Jannah lah etc. Dalam korang bergossip tentang kawan korang tu, apa kata korang check, korang ni dalam kategori mana. Saja lah aku bagi few categories yang perhaps korang dapat relate with your social life especially students. Check it out, kalau rajin.
Lintah
Pernah tengok lintah bila melekat dekat kulit? Susahkan nak buang lintah tu. Macam tu lah kau dengan kawan kau. Kawan yang jenis macam ni, asyik nak berkepit saja dengan kau 24/7. Pergi mana-mana pun mesti nak bersama. Pergi kelas, pergi shopping, pergi CafĂ©, pergi toilet. Semualah nak bersama. Sometimes orang yang tengok pun naik rimas, macam belangkas, macam twin.Kalau in campus kan, siapa yang nak ambil kau as grop member akan dapat package 2-in-1. Ambil kau dapat extra satu lagi group member, si ‘twin’ kau tu. Nampak tak penangan dia macam mana. Don’t play-play. Tapi kawan yang macam ni bagus jugak, jatuh bangun kau, dia tetap ada dengan kau, jadi backbone, jadi supporter and cheerleader. Sebab utama dia, dah nama pun rapat, mestilah apa-apa hal kau akan cerita dengan dia. Segala memories yang sweet macam cotton candy sampailah memories yang sepahit-pahit kopi akan dikongsi. Korang dua dah faham sangat perangai masing-masing, kalau melawak kasar pun tak ada lah dia nak sentap lelebih sangat. Kawan yang macam ni bagus sikit nak simpan dalam ‘friendship jar’ kau.
Touch and Go
Kawan yang jenis macam ni banyak ada dekat kampus. Kawan yang jenis cari kau bila dia perlukan something. Kalau tak ada apa-apa hal, kau pun dia buat-buat tak wujud. Invisible. You are nothing, a piece of leaf yang wondering around ditiup angin sepoi-sepoi bahasa. Itulah kau dimata dia di saat tidak diperlukan. Tapi disaat dia memerlukan kau especially untuk kepentingan diri dia sendiri, kau lah intan permata, intan payung, life saver, warrior di muka bumi ni. Masa tu lah handphone kau yang krik krik tu berbunyi tak henti-henti dek sebab habis semua Whatapps, Wechat, Line, Kakaotalk segala mak nenek application yang kau ada dia hantar mesej. Selagi dia tidak dapat apa yang dia mahu, selagi tu lah dia akan bugging your life. Once dia dah dapat apa yang dia nak, once again kau hanyalah dedaun yang bertaburan di jalan dan dilenyek lori, kereta dan moto. Kawan yang macam ni layak kau ikat dalam plastic dan campak dalam dustbin.
Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup
Kawan yang jenis macam ni complicated sikit. Kau kena jaga hati dan perasaan dia selalu. Kau salah cakap sikit saja, habislah kau. You’re doom! Kau on saja Fb, Twitter, Moment Wechat penuhlah dengan rintihan hati dengan apa yang kau dah buat. Kawan yang jenis sangat sensitive. Sikit-sikit sentap. Ngamlah dengan title batu belah batu bertangkup, asal sentap sikit lari masuk dalam batu belah batu bertangkup dia. Dalam konteks ni batu belah batu bertangkup refer to social medias. Kawan yang macam ni kau kena extra cautious sikit, tutur kata kau kena jaga takut terhiris, terguris, tercalarkan hati dia yang senipis kulit bawang dan sesensitif sutera. Apa yang boleh dirangkumkan dalam kategori ni ialah kawan kau tu perangai dia a bit childish, need extra attention from others dan dia rasa memang dia perlukan orang untuk look after him/her. Bersabarlah wahai hati yer.
Phantom of Opera
Kawan yang jenis macam ni, unik sikit. Kawan yang macam ni jugak boleh dikatakan as apprentice for local actor. Kalau tercalon dalam anugerah ABPH tu especially kategori Best Actor dah sah-sah dia menang. Kawan yang jenis macam ni memang pandai bermuka-muka, pandai berlakon. Depan kau cakap lain, pijak habuk pun tak berbekas kaki tu orang cakap. Belakang kau, habis luar dalam kain kau dia canang dekat orang. Belum tentu cerita yang dia canang tu betul tapi orang lain akan percaya bulat-bulat. Iyalah, pelakon terbaik la katakan. Kawan yang macam ni memang kau kena hati-hati. Dia punya power tu as a snap of his/her finger saja, kisah hidup kau boleh berubah. Dengan kelebihan yang dia ada, dia mampu yakin orang dengan cerita dia. Thus, kawan yang macam nie layak kau letak dalam botol dan hanyutkan di Sungai Klang tu.
Lampu Tidur
Kawan yang macam ni best. Dia boleh ngam dengan kau ikut situasi macam lampu tidur dalam bilik kau. Bila kau perlukan extra light, switch on the light, bila kau nak tidur, dim-kan lampu tu. Korang mungkin ada interest yang sama, that’s why korang boleh masuk, clicked together. Kawan yang jenis macam ni memang senang nak communicate. Dia pandai associate-kan issue dengan situasi. Kira macam win-win situation. Tak terlalu memaksa, tak jugak terlalu rapat. Just nice. Kawan yang macam ni kalau nak express your thought pun dia willing to hear it. Sama jugak kalau dia perlukan kau untuk dengar his/her thought on some issue, kau pun boleh bagi opinion. Apa yang korang share between each other akan diterima dengan light hearted. No hurt feeling. Kawan yang macam ni bagus kau simpan bagus-bagus dalam kocek kau.


All the categories above are my random thoughts. So sorry if ada yang terasa hati or what so ever. Secara ringkasnya disini, if kau nak kawan yang terbaik dalam hidup kau, kau kena lah jadi yang terbaik untuk orang lain jugak. Mesti korang pernah dengar ayat clichĂ© ni kan “ my friends getting lesser once I’m growing up” Konon-konon kau tu dah mature enough to differentiate between true friends and vice versa. Tapi pernah tak terpikir yang kawan kau makin berkurang sebab your own attitude, your own drama yang tak habis-habis tu?( kalau ada drama lah) Fikir-fikirkan lah ye. Kawan ni penting sebab diaorang jugak yang akan bantu kau dalam jatuh bangunnya hidup kau. Berusahalah untuk jadi kawan yang terbaik, be honest to each other, till Jannah lah korang berkawan nanti.

Sunday, 10 May 2015

Blurry Memories





3 years. During that period there are lots of things happened and changing me into a person. There were circumstances that I had to deal with as well as sweet memories that I cherish the most. Sweet as cotton candy. And during that period, you are not with me. You are not beside me to hear all the craps, to endure my wild thoughts, to lend me your shoulder when I really need it. You are far away from me.
And yet today, I keep thinking of you. I miss you. So I turned around again. I think of you as I stop in place. When I held out my hand and I hug you tight. Silly me, I was dreaming and it hurt. I still remember that you asked me why do we need right to love? I said I don’t even know, perhaps it’s the human nature. You claimed that it’s ok to love someone. That ticking bomb even if we don’t know when it would explode, don’t be scared in advanced.
“No matter what happened, I won’t let you be alone even when you are hurt.”
And yet you did walked away and said farewell. Why? Oh, now I know, it was a part of life plans to me to grow stronger and not to misbehave like a child or be such a bitch.
I try erasing but I can’t erase you. You have become everything to me. You. I can’t see you and I can’t even touch you now but I am okay, I am alright. Even if goodbyes are sad but I know you are happy now.
The more I erase you the more I will miss you. I will shed no more tears than today. Like fate, I won’t ever have anyone like you. Only you. I always love you as much as my tears. Rest well. Goodbye my supermum.

p/s: Happy Mother’s Day (=

Wednesday, 6 May 2015

How To Move On

It not easy to forget something. This is because our brain is too ignorance to do things it not willing to do/accomplish. It not easy to force our brain to demolish what is already in there. It becomes harder when the ‘things’ keep bugging us when it was wonderful, when everything was magnificent, and when you were in the cloud nine due to the ‘things’.

There are two type of person in this world. Let says one is a boy and one is a girl. The boy always pretending that he is the master in acquiring, giving, accepting, appreciating as well as subside the feeling and emotion. However, the girl has a different point of view. The girl never tries to express her true feeling. Her dream, her observation on life. She keeps it by her own. She holds it for her own future.

  “You still don’t let her go.”

  “You are wrong. 3 years now dude, past is the past. Now she is happy with someone else and I feel nothing, I have no feeling on her anymore.”

  “So, what’s the problem now? Confront and tell her! I always be on your side. I always be your supporter, your back-bone”

   “That is the issue. I don’t have the guts. I’m not confident with myself.”

  “Cut the craps! What are you afraid of? It hurts to hear that she no longer has feeling on you? Come on. At least you tried.”

   “No. I’m afraid with my own reflection.”     
                          
   “How come?”

   “I’m afraid that I still be a bullshit from past and never change. I’m afraid that I’ll fall in her once again.”
   “You are not moving on dude!”

  “I told you million times, I don’t have any feeling on her anymore. I feel nothing. Neutral. Negative.”
   “No, you are not.”

   “So?”

“Moving on is not that hard. It likes an incarnation. You are pure and innocent like a baby. You don’t have to relate your past with your new life, your future that you are trying to build. Just enjoy being a brand new individual. Let your past go. Chin up, move forward and grab your bright future.”


Note: The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.

Saturday, 2 May 2015

Review: Evasion


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Hello!



Well, I just done did my reading on this awesome novel and of course this novel was published under Terfaktab squad. Purchased it ages ago but just had the opportunity to do some reading on it few days ago. Busy doe kalah menteri. But seriously student's life is not a joke, it is chaotic as usual when you are trying  to catch up or done everything in a short notice and it will be more worse when it is the submission week. I'm glad that I survived so far (padahal berlambak lagi project yang kejar belakang kau). Pheww..

Okay back on the main topic. Evasion was written by Farah K who is quit in fame when it comes to Terfaktab's novelist. It about a teenager's life named Aria. Aria been trapped inside the walls of what she calls the house of hell over ten years and all she's ever wanted was to escape. This is because after her parents passed away, she stays with her aunt who treating her like a slave. She did tried to escape however she always gets caught. One day, she did managed to escape from the house of hell. Due to her disappearance, her aunt hired a private detective to look for her. So, her new journey of life begins when she met Alex, the detective hired by her aunt, and out of blue she makes a deal with him instead of running away. Are you curious on what kind of deal she made with Alex? Go grab this novel at the nearest bookstore (if still available) because the 'wow effect' of the story started after she meeting Alex.

To be frank, it is one of the best English novel I ever read. The plot of the story is well delivered. Farah K managed to catch your attention and you wont lets the novel go till you done reading it. For those who are feel threaten by English, don't worry the content is understandable and the level of word choices are not too high. Thumb up to Farah K because managed to amaze the reader with your piece of work.

Friday, 1 May 2015

Past, Rainbow & Unicorn

Past is a Pandora box,
something that must not be remember,
something that must not be opened,
something that must not be seen.
Tacenda! Full with mystery.

Dear past,
just live crumpled up like you don't exist.
Past is like an idiot
who doesn't know how to do anything
besides hiding, avoiding and running away. 

Dear rainbow and unicorn,
please show your  true colour.
Rainbow and unicorn beautify the midst.
Rainbow and unicorn,
please stay and shine the earth always.

Once again,
Past shows it charms
and chase away both rainbow and unicorn.
Pathetic life cycle!

Note: I submitted this so called melancholic poetry ( or shall I address it as poem?) to Englishjer's HundredHundred Project. I hope it reflects the implicit meaning and the reader can guess what it all about. By the way I'm not really good or expert when it comes to literature. Hope you guys enjoy it and please jangan muntah hijau.


Mementos


A reminder from past events. Mementos carries a deep significant to someone in future, the past events which affected everything especially ones life cycle and friendship.

Mementos. A magic word, a Pandora box that save tons of memories as well as secrets. Mementos is about two friends who grew up together. They shared every single details about their life, no secret between best friend, they proclaimed. Everything was fine before one day, their friendship wrecked like a Titanic. One of them becomes popular, the other isn't. Poor little earthling.

Friendship drifts apart. Life goal changes. The scenery changes. Their world upside down. What's left on their friendship exits only in memory. Memories now precious. Where is the Pandora box? They keep searching, hoping for a miracle, hoping that everything just fine like before. Their hopes scattered in the atmosphere and disappear.

And so they move on, to another metamorphose process.